My financial situation is at a bad place. I have to move out of my apartment by august 31st. I cant work still because surprise! I'm still disabled, and I haven't had any proof of income in five years. After a lot of deliberating my solution is a small camper to live in on my friend's property. I have been raising money on stream to a goal of $3666 which can get me a winter ready camper. If you can donate, or if any of your friends can, even a little will help me. I also have some rewards available that I can fulfill on stream or off, depending on your comfort level. I have made this to try to get the word out. You can also donate to venmo or cashapp, I am girlysatan on all of them, and I also have links in the bottom header of the blog so you can pick which one you need. I have raised about 600 so far, but please don't feel obligated, I understand if you can't donate if you are also facing financial hardship! I have attached an image below if you are able to help.

updates

I lost my focus on my blog because I've been more active in discord. I been writing things on my server mostly, and I'm trying to figure out how I want to schedule everything across all the social medias. I think it'll feel better having some schedules for myself, and I think having some bots might help me with some other stuff too. I think I want to expand my writing out to more things, so if I make a schedule I can make sure I dedicate time to different projects. 

Ive started doing physical therapy at a pool recently and its helping build up my muscle tone slowly. I have also been working on my voice because there are a lot of things I want to do with it, and I want to sound a certain way.

I remembered to blog today, not just because I have an alarm in my phone, but because I figured out how I can use my lucid dreaming to help me remember what I went through during my childhood. You know how I use my house (not my actual house, it's a duplicate of different houses merged into one place) as a way to process trauma? Well I can also use it to find the bad memory of what happened to me, and see what I had been avoiding my entire life. I think it will work. And if it doesn't it won't be too bad.

Anyway I have a lot of sleep debt so I'm going to bed.

Covid sucks

 There's a lot of things that have gone on lately and I just am shocked but not that shocked about how little the fucking govt is doing to protect people. One of the CDC spokespeople just said that people with four or more comorbidities are the only people dying from covid and its just a slap in the face to all disabled people. So many people who are advocating and working towards health rights are disabled people because otherwise we die. The callousness of this person saying that only people with comorbidities are dying is ridiculous. If you have diabetes, neuropathy, depression, and vascular issues, then cool the govt doesn't care that you died from covid. Most people have more than one comorbidity if they have any type of illness. This is just a trashy thing to say to anyone. They don't give a fuck about you or me or your grandma or your dad or whoever the fuck in your family has health problems.

The other thing that is really breaking my brain is the lack of care about sending kids to school to get covid because "oh they are young and will recover fine." Let me remind you that Covid is a VASCULAR disease that will probably not show up problems in kids until years later. Vascular diseases are significant and can kill people. So I guess the attitude is fuck those kids until they start showing symptoms of worse shit. And even then they probably wont do shit. because they are just letting disabled people die, they are just letting kids die, they are just letting old people die, and they are just demanding we get back to work so they can steal our capital once we die. Because that's all this is about. Making people rich.

J wasn't even done being sick, even got a letter from the health department that he should quarantine, but his job was like "its been ten days so you can come back into work." Not, ten days after you stop having symptoms. Not even ten days after you stop testing positive, but ten days after you started having symptoms, you should come back to work. They literally don't care people get this disease that has been proven to give long symptoms to half the people who survive it. You cant even sue the places you work at for being neglectful about covid now that everyone is getting it which is fucking disturbing. Normally if you get hurt at work, they have to pay for your medical bills, but no, not this apparently. Even though they are making people come back in, positive with covid. Because sorry, rich people need airplanes, and they don't care if your spouse will become more disabled from getting infected multiple times by a disease we have had two years to get a handle on.

I am shocked, but not that shocked. I hate it here.

I have reached out to social services to see if I can find housing in a place without mold, and I have a social worker now to help me get onto disability. Hopefully I can get into my own place this year, before I get covid again because of everyone's lax rules about this illness. But even then I am worried about covid because there are multiple friends of mine saying they got covid even with quarantining because most places don't have adequate ventilation and poor filtration on whatever ventilation it does have.

Anyway I'm trying to be better about posting in the week, but I feel like you can get more daily interaction with my discord server. I been better about posting memes every day, soon ill get the routine down. Hope to see you there!